燕子の物语

What to say lehz? I surprise myself. I had a dream of him last night. Although I don't have a very vivid image of what I dreamed of. But it definitely don't feel good. The fact that he appear in my dream, does it mean I still think of him at times? Seriously, I do not want to have anything to do with it. But sometimes, it seem kinda not easy. I am thinking, maybe my heart is not totally mend after all. I kinda stop talking about him anymore. Most people around me stop talking about him too.

Today, we went to send yong wei off in the air port. His whole family was there too. As it was almost time, the few of us walked him to the gate, together with his mom (the rest of the family were having breakfast). It got kinda wierd when his mom ask me where is my boyfriend. I just smile and junjun was like laughing away. His mom asked again is it that he was sleeping so he did not come. I don't know what to answer so I remain silent. Luckily it was for a short while. However, When we were walking his mom back to the family, she ask again about him. All of us remained quiet and change topic. I guess his mom should have suspect something wrong from our behavour. Guess she was waiting for us or rather me to say something, but I still choose to keep quiet.

Suddenly I thought, what am I gonna do when next year chinese new year comes along again? Every year, all of us (the usual gang) will go each other house to bai nian; and every year, he was with me (other than the years he went overseas with parents and China). From next year onwards, I guess I will be one man show le. I could foresee the parents asking me about him and if the topic start, I don't know how it will end. Or maybe I shouldn't think so much first. What good would it be if I think so much right?

船到桥头自然直.