燕子の物语

I used to think that once I settle in a job, I will stay there for good and will not think about the possibility of leaving. I used to be contented with my job, within my comfort zone, and thought that "this shall be my life." After years of experience I gained, I realize that I had been naive and thought everything will go my way.

One had to think long term, to think if there is prospect in the company but not to be a chess piece, waiting people to checkmate you. If that company have prospect, then you will need to prove yourself and push your way up. You cannot be the same technologist over a period of 5 years. One had to move on and move up. If that company does not give you this prospect, isn't it time to start thinking of changing job? Recently, I have been in a delimma. I know there is no more prospect in this company, let alone move up the ladder or transfer to another department. In fact, if the company did not give me the increment or opportunity that I want, I guess I might just decided to take a short break before starting on another job. Sound very practical right?

But at my age, I don't want to be trap in lab. If possible, I am thinking of the possibility of moving up to the management or office.

Life, is another ordeal; another experience. Just when I thought I had seen alot, encounter lots of high and down, I realize there are still plenty of stuff out there I had yet to experience. Life is full of different phases. May it be love, enjoyment, sorrow and even betrayal. When you thought you are treating this person as if he/she is your close one, the next moment, this person could betray you.

What exactly is life? What exactly are we searching for in life? Life is full of work, studies, friendship, love and frustration. Don't akl me why  I am suddenly so emo, I have no idea at all. Am I not satisfied with my life now? You could say it was a 50-50. I love my family, my loved ones, my buddies! But at the same time, I feel my life is empty, doing routine job but not what I am really interested in.

Contradicting isn't it?