燕子の物语

Sheena Easton - Almost Over You

I saw an old friend of our's today
She asked about you, i didn't quite know what to say
heard youv'e been making the rounds 'round here
while I've been trying to make tears disapear

Chorus:
Now Im almost over you
I've almost shook these blues
so when you come back around
after painting the town
you'll see im almost over you...

you're such a sly one with a cold cold heart
maybe leavin came easy, but it tore me apart
time heals all wounds they say and I should know
coz it seems like forever,
but im letting you go

(chorus)

I can forgive you and soon I'll forget all my shattered dreams
although you left me with nothing to show
but all misery

( chorus )

when you come back around, after painting the town,
you'll see im almost over you...

In another 3 more days, I will meet him to take back my stuff that I left at his house. I don't know if I have the courage to meet him. I don't know when I meet him, how will I react? Am I confident and prepared to see him, to talk to him? When I know that he will no longer hold on to my hands, look deep in my eyes, smile only for me. One part of my heart say it's time to let go. It's time to settle everything and not be in too much contact with him. Another part of my heart say otherwise. That other part of me, longed for his hug, his gentleness and his touch. Suddenly I realize, I am in a dilemma.

Why is it so hard to let go? I wondered. Why is it when I think I finally don't think of him often anymore, his face will pop up in my mind without warning. Why is my love for him did not lessen as time goes by? In my mind, I know he is getting on with his life and I should do likewise. In my heart, it is a total different thing. My mind and my heart are not thinking the same thing! Did I really pour too much feeling into this relationship? So much that I am unable to get them back.

I repeatedly listen to the songs he like, constantly thinking of how different life is now. I kept myself occupied, coz I know during that instant, I will forget everything, just focus on doing that one thing that I am doing. But after all the activities and programme, what left is only emptiness. And the emptiness is getting bigger as time goes by. How can I stop it from enlarging?

I don't want to bother my friends too much. They had done a lot for me already. They keep me companied during my hardest period of time, they did everything to make me happy. But why did I feel that no matter how happy I am at that instant, they are not my true feeling. I guess I hardly know myself that well anymore.

I thought my tears finally stop. Yesterday, I went out with my colleagues for a movie. I watch the presequal with him before. Suddenly, I guess the sad feeling got the better part of me. I became kinda emotional. On my way home, my tears rolled down my cheek without warning. The sooner I am going to meet him, the more emotional I got.

Please let me be brave and get over this darkness of mine soon.